Lost Motivation in January

My personality type is ENFP and we are infamous for being able to start a bazillion different things, and we are lucky if we finish one of them. When it comes to New Year’s resolutions there is this same tendency. Trying to incorporate consistent change in my life I’ve adopted the “Monthly” resolution process, but this even ended a quarter of the way into the year last year. Still, not a reason to give up this year!

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In the month of January I take an entire month to brainstorm/evaluate the changes that I need to make. Usually, too, January ends up being the month of organization since that seems the be the best way to get started. While I wanted that to be more house organization, it has mostly been about personal life organization.

At the end of 2014 I had just discovered that a counseling position to begin in January was postponed with no indication of how long. This means that my daily life needed help and structure even if I was gonna wait. Specifically, these were the good ideas of waking up at a more reasonable hour, eating better, eating breakfast and then going to the gym/doing a workout from home, being more disciplined with chores.

 

Here’s my roller coaster of motivation with resolutions:

* “Oh this is easy, I can do this!” – That first time that I try something, I have extra energy, and coast through said activity. Its that workout that I breeze through, excited to see how much better my life is gonna be.

* “Ugh, its cold I don’t want to go to the gym!” – This one was easier to get over. I told myself that anytime I went to the gym this winter I could get yummy sushi on my way out. That motivation was enough to put the gym clothes which was enough to get me out the door. I’m totes okay with bribing myself, you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do. Also, surprisingly, I don’t make myself buy sushi. If I already have leftovers in the fridge I’ll focus on eating that instead. Plus, I kind of lost out because I don’t want to even get take out when I’m hot, red, and sweaty from the gym. :-/

* “Ugh, why isn’t this a natural gumption yet?!” –  This was me during the second week. I’d worked out several times, been waking up earlier, and accomplishing more…but the resistance against these new habits was UNREAL. I felt like I was attempting to roll a giant boulder up a steep mountain incline! It honestly made me want to quit. Then, I took a new workout class and my quads were intensely hurting the next day, BUT I didn’t experience the same taken-a-back-ness at the sore muscles. Instead, sore muscles meant that I was getting stronger. But, really, the resistance in my life is the same as the “sore” muscles. So, I resolved to accept this unseen resistance and keep on keeping on.

* “Ugh, I’m never going to be able to do this, because I’m a horrible person/failed before” – Finally, the saddness of past failures can sometimes overwhelm me. This makes for less energy to try. All I could do was wait for the feelings to fade away, focusing on the fact that I have a Savior that blots out all of my failures and short comings. He’s the one that helps me to be a better person than I could ever dream of being. :0) Romans 8:38-39.

What are your New Year’s resolutions? Have you struggled to keep them? What has worked?

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