All of 2013 has been about the culmination of my Professional Counseling Master’s degree, begun in January 2010.
This has been an incredibly long journey through which I’ve really struggled. I’ve wrestled with papers, tests, rejection from internship opportunities, no shows, insecurities, and it finally came down to the wire. The question of the hour was “would I get all of the needed face to face hours?!” Would I have my full 60 hour degree, or would I get bumped down to a 30 hour Human Services degree?
The last few weeks there were moments of worry, doubt, and extreme anxiety. However, I clung to the promise that God had started me on this journey, and that He’d finish it with me. The last few week there were so many moments with clients that were supernaturally filled with the Holy Spirit, that truly reminded me that God had ordained me to be at this place at this moment in time.
It was evidenced to me that He’d allowed me to struggle through my own issues in my personal counseling sessions, to be able to become a more secure and competent counselor.
He’d allowed me to grow into my retention skills, allowing me to experience a greater diversity of counseling while working with other therapists.
The last day I was filled with peace and excitement, waiting in expectation for God to really show up! I was nervous as good byes can be awkward, especially in this new professional sense. By the end of the day 4 out of 6 schedule clients had shown up for their appointments…and I’d earned my face to face hours by 1 hour!
It was so incredible, it just felt surreal. I don’t know if it will feel completely real until there is a diploma in my hand!
Everyone keeps asking me, “What’s next?”
I’d decided to take the rest of December off, due to the erratic schedule of cotherapy (during the other counselor’s schedules) and stress of it all. Come January, I’d start applying places.
Sadly, I’ve been enjoying my time off probably more than I should. I weigh through the different options. At this time there was not the possibility to continue at my site, as there are already 2 Masters level therapists. I’m interested in pursuing my licensure…but its difficult to commit to a new beginning know that the journey is 4,000 hours long. I’ll just have to look around and see what is available, see what doors God opens.
The coolest thing was that our Christmas party was on the same date I began my internship in 2012! It was awesome as I rushed to complete my hours, to have an opportunity the following week to really savor time with everyone. We played Christmas games, and the December birthdays were given gifts. I was floored by the generosity shown by my peers. They spoiled me with Amazon and Kroger gift cards. I will really miss all of them and I hope to save all of the lessons that they taught me!