Monday night I couldn’t sleep. I kept feeling like I should have prepared more in some way. I didn’t feel like I had any information in my head. I tossed and turned, before finally turning on my cell phone and scrolling through Pinterest. There was a pin from a student who was on the Thailand 2009 trip, she posted a quote “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.” In 2009 on that trip her and another leader wrote a song with a similar theme “God doesn’t called the equipped, He equips the called” and I began to sing the lyrics.
Finally, I could sleep. The next morning my outfit and bags were packed, so I overestimated the amount of time I would need, and still ended up getting there ridiculously early. I settled into the office and played Christian worship music on my phone to continue to calm my nerves. Reading over files, I felt ready for this, knowing that God is going to help me through this process. However, the nerves came back as soon as I heard the “ding” on the door announce the entrance of a client.
I simply took a deep breath and launched into the sessions.
In counseling we must face the depravity of man, and it has been heart breaking. Counseling brings one face to face with sin and its destructive path. People either become victims based on sin in the lives of others, or get caught in destructive habits and victimize others.
Again, I’m also very lucky to be working at a Christian private practice, that particularly draws clients because they want to incorporate Christ into their healing process. It is easy in those instances for one to realize that they need to improve their relationship with Christ.
Please be praying for those I’ll be working with, that God will work in and through me.